but not I am not sure if I should take it. 

I want it, I love the idea, I love the pay, I love that it is in D.C., I can’t stop being afraid though. I need to respond by Monday morning to get the job, but I can’t even stop my brain from being scrambled to see if I really want it. 

I keep making so many excuses from getting my life started because I am scared. I have an apartment full of my things that I don’t want to leave for two months, a loving boyfriend who I know won’t be able to handle the distance, friends and family, a decentlypaying job that I don’t really like at all… There are things here. How can I stop being scared?